When everything around you crumbles before your eyes, you begin to get depressed... well that's how it was for me anyway. I thought that everything was going smoothly in my business something that I took so much pride in and still do. The reality is having a business is not always going to be peaches and cream. What you choose to do during the difficult times is either going to break you or your going to stick through it and push forward. I never experienced that kind of pain and feeling of defeat before so I didn't know how to handle it. I began to sulk and pretend to be happy but in reality I wasn't. Drowning myself in the nearest episode of Criminal Minds, How to Get Away With Murder, American Horror Story, and my favorite The Walking Dead. Tv Shows and every snack, pizza, anything fried, chocolate donuts and pop! Depression eating at its finest! Of course I could have easily picked up a bottle of fat fighters during these binge eating episodes but what was the point?! During this time I gained over 30 pounds back that I got rid of.
Last week I woke up and just sat there in my living room starring at the tv, not looking at anything in particular. I starred for what had to be an hour or two just thinking! The only thing I can remember thinking 💭 was how on earth did I allow myself to get to this place. Everything I was fighting for, everything that had planned for the near future just gone. Not because of someone else but because of me. I allowed myself to fall completely off the wagon. I got up and just starred at myself in the mirror feeling disappointed, disgusted, and down about my appearance. When I sat back down on the couch I pulled my phone out and went to Instagram. I looked at this lady who I called my body goals. I took a screenshot of one of her pictures and saved it as my wallpaper on my phone 📱. At this moment I can't remember her name but here is the picture that was my wallpaper (it's not anymore as of today). 👇🏽
She's beautiful right?! To me she's exactly how I want to be. To me she's seems confident and comfortable in her skin, which is something that I just don't have. I'm sure I read somewhere that she is a trainer so I expect for her to be fit. I'm envious of her! I know what your thinking never compare yourself to someone else's journey and their appearance BUT look at her 👀! Anyway, I vowed to myself that I needed to put my big girl draws on and change what I'm complaining about. So officially on 6/19/17 I began my journey to getting fit! Claiming back my happiness. I thought about the first step I took when I joined It Works as a distributor!
1. If your why is strong enough nothing can break your goal. So I thought about why I had to get back to being happy. A part of me being happy is feeling good about myself. I would not have complete happiness if I'm not in a happy place about my appearance. I thought about how I had to pick myself up for my kids. How other kids teased them because they felt that their mom was fat! I thought about all of the reasons why I needed to get my weight back down. I got extremely emotional and it brought me to tears! When that happened I knew my why was strong enough! My leaders tell us all the time of our why does not make you emotional it's not strong enough.
2. You know when I first was told about ItWorks I continued to put off joining thinking today is not the right time! Every time someone states they want to eat better, workout, or do anything it's always Ill wait until the 1st or I'll wait until Monday... that day never comes! So on Sunday I said that's it tomorrow is the day! Stop putting it off or waiting for that right day or time.
So on Monday I downloaded the Zova application to assist me with working out and surprisingly although hard I hung in there. I worked out, drank a gallon of water, ate correctly, and did not eat after 6. I decided that I wanted to not only track my journey on my Facebook group Get Snatched but I wanted to blog my journey every week. So please register on my website so your up to date on my journey! Although this next step was hard I took my day 1 pictures of myself. I told myself I would take a picture everyday until I meet my goal of 155-160lbs. I hope you enjoy my journey and take it with me. Feel free to comment I pray your comments are positive. However I guess if it's not I wouldn't care because I'm working towards a better me.
...Its a sunny day out and all I can think about is what the next three months holds for me and my family. Really how is it possible to yearn so much for them and not be where you want to be yet within the business! Everyday I look at my amazing Leaders and just admire them. They are everyday people just like myself! They have come from all different walks of life, have all been through their own story, and continue to have hurdles each day. Can you imagine regular people being able to continue to push through no matter the obstacles?
Everyday we are telling people that we want this and that but yet our actions do not show that. We give up at the slightest hint of difficulty or what you see is failure! How can we as business owners state your reason for believeing, dreaming and wanting more BUT then turn around and use that as an excuse as to why you can't push through it.
I too have felt this but the difference between you and me is that I won't give up. I will push harder then ever to prove to myself and my family that you can have whatever your heart desires. I'm going to prove to my team that even when your hurt that your family and friends didn't want to support you they don't dictate your future. All you have to do is continue to push, realize that your the only one that determines where you are heading. Stop thinking that you are in a business that requires little work, that you can cheat the system and be successful, that you can lack integrity and elevate, or that you can come in and tomorrow you will be a millionaire! The thing that sets the top leaders from us all is that they fight for what they want and we continue to let fear be our downfall!
When will you have have the courage to be different and just GO! I will beginning NOW! Reality of it all is that if you do not build a strong team that team will crumble right before your eyes! Which is what my team has done because just about everyone is not coachable, they do not see the big picture, scared of hard work, uncomfortable with being uncomfortable, or thought that they had to put no time into it! Because people want to quit does that make me quit? No. I keep pushing forward and adjusting my life to my reality. Which means grind harder and find those that want this business just as much as I do! Find those that want to change their life!! It's just a setback for a major comeback!!! I can't wait to show you what's in store for my family... what's in store for my team!
You ever experience waking up and just knowing that great things are about to take place? You wake up just knowing that your life is about to change! That is the feeling that I had the morning of February 9th 2017. That was the day that I would would be traveling to Tampa Florida for the It Works ONE Conference. When you think of a conference you think of a bunch of people getting togethe and just having a boring meeting and that's it. I did not know that this weekend would be weekend that would light that fire under me to chase my dreams.
I got to the airport pretty early because I wasnt sure how long it would take me to get through security. Once I was through which surpringly did not take that long I was at my gate. I sat at my gate watching everyone walk by thinking that person looks like they need this opportunity. However my thoughts I did not take action to let them know about this crazy wrap thing and how this business is changing my life. About a hour went by and I noticed that more and more green, black & bling decor was crowding in the terminal set for departure. There was so many of us that it was remarkable. Everyone was energized and you could feel it vibrating off of each other. Everyone else that was in the terminal did not know what was going on however they were even smiling at us. I met some wonderful ladies just at the airport alone. We all decided that at that moment it would be a great idea to take a picture together. Look below at how many of us was on one plane leaving Houston!
I can not begin to tell you the energy that I felt at this moment!! All I know is One Conference changed the face of my business as I know it!